Take Cover

                                                     

Sometimes I'm not to big a fan of being me.
22 without a real friend in the world. ((Besides the hubby<3)) Some how it just feels weird. You'd think things would be a whole lot better by this age, and in my case they are by far! But I still see so much in the way of just being happy and comfortable.

Leaving Japan soon has got me a bit unstitched. I had to leave America, fly over the biggest ocean, put 3 countries and x amount of islands inbtween, and then put myself in a guarded military facility, just to rehabillitate myself from my family. Thinking of going back for x amount of years makes my skin crawl. We'll never be safe, or happy for extended periods of time.With those people, it's just not possible. Setting houses on fire, braking in and stealing things. Slashing tires and drive by shooting from strangers. Idenity theft and people showing up at your work to fight you and cause a scene. These are just some of the things my family does. It's the understatment of the year to say i'd be a bit stressed. ((Which happens to be horid for people with MS))

The only confort I really have is my husband to keep me from hyperventalating to death. I've started talking with red cross about trying to get some help for the summer for a cooling vest. They referred me to a website called MSF or http://www.msfocus.org/. They have a lot of programs and events for people with ms AND their family. =D I'm kinda relieved there's some kind of support.
I already found a small cooling mat to lay or sleep on when I feel like I'm dying. lol