Swimming in Grey

ROAR!!!
Sorry. Just wanted to start it like that. XD Everything's been going ok for the most part. =]
Still in a battle over my muscle pains. Went to see my PCM ((Primary Care Medic)), but got his stand in.  ^^* She was rather upfront about her absolute lack of any knowledge of my "condition". So she called another guy, and he basically did the same. ( '_';) Luckily I have bronchitis, so they were pretty excited they could do SOMETHING. lol
Backed out of the tattoo for the most part, for now. Just got too complicated honestly, and I just wasn't willing to make certain sacrifices. ((My wonderful wonderful Onsen<3, and of course, my loving squishy bear's adoration of my ankles. XD)) I felt pretty bad about having to back out over those kinds of things, but in the end I can always get one later. ^^

School thing.... yeah..... One of the first medium sized disappointments of the year. But I highly confident I'll be able to start in late March. Going back to school makes me a bit nervous. Seeing how the last time, I was UN-medicated, undiagnosed, highly stressed, having EBAs, anxiety attacks, and honestly, had no idea how to brace myself for college. ((Yes. Little did I know it was all the Ms's fault... and my family's.... XD))(MS is a cognitive, as well as a physical and emotional disease.) You'd be surprised to realize how much of your personality and life experiences came from or were influenced by MS... So this time around I'm readying myself and trying to keep calm. Slowly, but surely, I think I've gotten a bit of a handle on it. =]

Video wise, still need to get a program..... that actually works correctly.... XD And I got some video shooting ideas I'm still working on. :D In the end, I hope it helpful to some out there. ^^

Not So Tech Savvy, Are Ya?

Having technical difficulties, to say the least. Even after I got technical support from my awesome friend Amanda. Who actually went to college for film and video! =D She came over to help with the program I'd gotten...... and then things went down hill. XD In the end, I looked retarded and was talking without my mouth moving at all! XD I told her she should just go shoot herself in the corner. lol We agreed 2 hours later that the program was a piece of crap and I needed to get another. T.T
Then of course my lover told me that the video takes I did were horrible and depressing! "Not enough eye contact. Don't play with your hair! Don't look over or roll your eyes! It's too distracting!" XD ((OK Mr. Director.....)) So I'm on take 5 now. No lie, I'm starting to become slightly discouraged.... But! I really want this to work!
This is the year of the new leaf, and I'm going to actually try to finish crap I start. LOL ((I'm a SUPER BIG procrastinator)) So please understand it'll take me a little while to get it done. In the mean while I'll try to keep typing on a regular basis. =]

Current status on the MS front; My legions have finally stopped progressing! =D Random limb twitching is down, and I'm starting to get sick like the normals do. lol XD Not too fond of that part, but don't have much in the say.... Going back to college finally! =D ((Because not being able to get a nice job that pay well really suck. >x< ((And for us MSers pick of the job is more important then you'd first think. '_')) Nervous about the upcoming classes, work, tests, deadlines, traveling, and just day to day stuff I might feel a little over loaded these next few months. Which is why I'm going to see my Doc about upping the dosage of Effexor, so I don't freak out and have a E.B.A.

Taking my shots is getting some what easier. ((Way better now then in the beginning...=_=''''')) My lover's been wonderful about the whole thing and likes to give me the shots. ^^ Seeing how only my legs are the easy injection points for me. >.< Hoping to get some pain meds soon so I can get back to the gym. I know it sounds weird, and no, I'm not a meat head type. I really love working out even if it's nothing amazing. It still help us MSers out a bunch. How? Losing weight is good for us by reducing other health hazards, including high blood pressure, kidney failure, stroke, heart attack, and many others. It promotes endorphins, which helps you to feel better and fight depression. It helps you build up energy endurance, to make you more productive too. =] Over all it just a really good thing. And yes, having a workout partner of some sort will make it funner and easier for you to do it.

So until then I'll just keep trying. T.T Wish me luck~

Rattle These Bones

Time to get to it!! I'm pretty sure I really want to do a video blog! =D I hope it doesn't come out completely crapy. T.T In escense I just really want to cover a demgraphic that seems to not be covered super well. ALL THE YOUNG MS PEOPLE!!! Why is it when I look to videos for some relief or just to see what they have to say... well... They're all UGLY, OLD, FAT, and/or in a RIDICULOUS SITUATION?? It's depressing as all get out!! ((They're are only a handful of exceptions.)) And even they don't fill the void. So I think I wan to give this a good try and maybe help out "my people". lol Honestly, I think it'd be fun and hopefully helpful one way or another for others. =] So I guess sooner or later you guys will see a video on here. ^^ Wish me luck! *Not Tech Savvy....*

Tattoos For All

So of course, as I've been swearing up and down that I would do, I'm finally getting my tatts. =] Not the sleeve I initially wanted, but 2 small Kanji with decoration. One for each ankle. I'm pretty stoked about it. X] An old friend of mine, Taku, happens to be an amazing tattoo artist with the his own shop. =] ((Completely licenced and legal of course)) His assistant ((more of a understudy if anything)) Will be doing the Kanji and Taku with do the decoration and coloring<3 I've been talking about doing it for years. So it's pretty exciting.
My boy isn't exactly on board with the idea, but I think going to the appointments might bring him around. ;]

MS wise, I've already completed my quarterly MRIs and am just waiting to see my Neurologist to see if I've gotten worse, better, or took a weird turn.... again.... But I don't see him 'till the 10th of next month. So until then, I just have to stay on the meds and focus on everything else going on. Like saving up for my Ryu-Tama baby<3 I totally can't wait for that either! X] And then there's the start of spring 1 semester. '_' ..... yeah... pretty scared of that one. TT.TT But I got a hand full or so of friends that are going to college like me, so there's some support. ='] I'm feeling more confident this time around, but am just a bit worried. -_-' Maybe getting the tatts might give me a little more confidence..? '_'

Rebirth

New Years is just around the corner!! And I'm dead set on having a complete fresh start! =] I'm ready to turn this battleship around and start heading full steam towards my goals and dreams.

Wow. That sounds more optimistic then I am. lol

My name's Mo-chan, and I was just diagnosed with MS.